He keeps suprising me

The Lord is Good and Faithful. His Mercy endures forever. Great is His Faithfulness and Holy if His name. I have found that living on my own in a strange place where I don't know anyone has been much different than expected. I have come to realize that, in my complacency, I have been asleep for many months before I arrived in Baltimore. I feel that the Lord is gently waking me up to realize the greatness of His will and the true meaning of meekness. As a naturally outgoing, talkative and somemtimes loud person... this virtue is of the greatest importance to strive for. There were times in my life when I fought my Type-A personality... resisted the urge to respond, to reach out... to embrace my over-expressive facial features and reactions. After a series of painful life-events (which we all experience and are utterly necessary) I dropped my guard and decided to learn virtue according to my personality instead of fighting it.

I feel like I am beginning a whole new chapter in the project of virtue. In no way am I patting myself on the back or feel the least bit deserving of any admiration... but rather that I am experiencing humility in a new way. Humility between myself and the King of Kings... no one else involved. Praise God. He knows how sweetly to appraoch my heart, how forcefully to call me to change. What a challenging revelation and I am thankful.

Love Beyond Self,
Lauren